Just Thinking About Him

When my thoughts are idle, He seems to find a way in. After I've finished doing this or that, He always tops it off and I can say another lesson learned. I know He is by my side but still I dwell on when will everything work out. When will all my uncertainties become certain and when will I know atleast some of the facts. He's brought me this far and I thank Him for that. I could of been anything else and been every else but I am still here. I never thought love could be like this but He is definitely my love song. I want to spend every unoccupied second with Him. He teaches me everything there is to know. I can read His words over and over again because His words never become weak. The same lesson I could learn 100 different ways and it could stil be unique. He pushes me to go above and beyond thus making me recognize a side of me I never knew. Without Him, where would I be?

Your Will Is Best For Me

I wish I could tell you, just what I want
and you just give it to me just like that
the truth of the matter, it just might hurt me
and You won't let me go out like that
You know my end before my beginning
calculated blessings down to the penny
So I'll cry until you tell me let it go and let it be
'Cause oh Lord, Lord Your Will is what's best for me

Darius Brooks--Your Will
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1qxs0sfURZM

Better Late than Never, Right?

I knew about a half week before break started that I had to do 4 papers that are due the day I start classes again. But here it is 2 days before the due date that I am struggling to get them done. The papers won't be as good because I don't have the time to make them super good. Tomorrow I have a full plate with church, getting back to school, settling in, preparation for classes the next day and possibly step practice. They say better late than never.

If I apply this story to God then that last statement is completely false. God is good but God also doesn't tolerate things for too long especially if it's something we know is wrong. I can't wait until I am on my death bed to praise him. Because on the death bed I won't be able to praise him like I could now. The praise won't be as good as it could have. I won't have the same energy. So while I am young I will do my best to praise him the best I can. I won't wait until the last minute.

Philippians

Philippians 4:11-13
"...for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content. I know both to be abased, and I know how to abound: everywhere and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and suffer need. I can do al things through Christ which strengtheneth me."

A Little Bit of This and That

My Christian Walk has changed. Now I am more eager to seek God. Not only does the Bible motivate me to do the things of God with all it's wonderful stories but my church family also motivates me. Most of them has a different characteristic (natural and spiritual) that I so love about them.

There is this one sister that brightens my day. You don't have to say any thing to her and she will just look at you and smile so hard you could barely see her eyes. But don't get it twisted she knows her word. There is another sister who I really like. I haven't known her for very long but she is too sweet and a fighter to me. All the times that I've see her she is always happy except one time. But this is where I see the fight in her. She never lets anything get her down for too long and I like that. My youth Pastors are amazing. They are too funny to watch and listen to. The husband always gets on the wife for her big lips and the wife gets on the husband. But I like them because they want to see me as well as the other youths do good. They show it through their work that they love. And there is this one brother who I look at as my big bro. We've grown closer over the past month or so and he's been nothing but an influence to me. My Pastor above all is a great influence. Just watching her preach and teach every Sunday is a blessing itself. But even when she isn't preaching she is just a lovable person you can't seem to draw yourself away from.

I don't think my church family could be matched any better than it is now. We all go through this walk but everyone comes from different paths. So not every person is the same. I see so much in each of them and it makes me want to reach their level and more. Sometimes I feel I can just sit in their presence or talk to them 24/7 about things of God and not mind it.

So as I keep pushing forward in this Walk I am appreciative towards all of them whether they know it or not. They are my motivators and as long as they keep rooting for me I'll be alright.

Known Consequences

Today I went to my friend's job. We were just hanging around laughing and making jokes. Then I got bored for a second and punched her in the arm. She didn't do anything so I punched her again and again. When I stopped she put pressure somewhere on my neck/ shoulder area. It hurt really bad. I pleaded with her not to do it again and she chilled out. But I hit her again. This time I really pleaded with her to not to do what she did to my neck/shoulder area again because knowing the pain that was to come flashed back in my head. I said to her "God is merciful, He'll forgive, please don't do that again."

This is what we do to God. We do things knowing they are wrong and then we get punished. Then we go ahead and do it again knowing the consequences. Just because our God is merciful and all that good stuff doesn't mean we should take advantage.

You Are What You Eat

Some of the young ladies and I went over one of the older sister's house. We sat around and watched a movie and ate pepperoni and sausage pizza. When we were done she showed us her wedding tape and everybody started commenting on what was going on in her wedding, past weddings, their own weddings etc. Two people coming together in God is such a beautiful thing. She then wanted us to show us a tape of her life before she actually gave her full self over to God. She wasn't ashamed because her life is changed for the better and God brought her so far. She then said "that is why I praise God the way I do because he saved a wreth like me."



When we got to the end of the video she took interest in us. She went around the room asking "so, what are you in to?" She wanted to know if we used to have a past life like hers, if we were dating and the whole nine. I was taken away by the question because no one ever talked to us about that. A typical conversation about that type of stuff wouldn't be taken so seriously, we were told to wait or simply told don't do this because I've done it. As I thought about it, I began to appreciate the converstaion because it was so rare but sincere.

Before we left she prayed and the phrase "you are what you eat" dropped into my spirit. If we feed out spirit the things that are not of God then slowly but surely we will lose the sight of God. Things that occur in our lives won't be as clear as they were. But if we feed our spirit the things of God then life will be more clear and so much easier. We don't always like to eat what's healthy for us but it's a choice. We can eat what's good for us and be able to show off in our two-piece at the beach or we could be stuck in a one piece with a towel on.

I want to look good for the Lord so I'm trying to eat right!