Just An Observer

It's definitely been a while since I've written. So much has been coming my way I haven't really sorted it out. That alone is a problem. I've been trying to think for myself and fix this because I felt that it was my mess to clean and not God's. But everything is His, both good and bad. So after going through this little war in my mind with myself, I am finally putting it in His hands. I am taking things word by word and day by day. I can't expect people to say what I want them to say and I can't expect my days to go as planned or even try to make my life come out the way that I want it too. As I've written before, it's time to surrender my will and take on God's will. That's a tough thing.

When I first started this blog I said it was basically to help me get my ideas and thoughts out. I didn't come to that notion on my own. It was God. I know it was God. I am the type of person to just sit there and take it all in as far as what people do and how they treat me and others. I just observed. If I have a problem I observe others to see how they handled it. I wouldn't and still won't go ask for advice. So this blog in a way I believe is to help me not stay an observer but to become more involved. And I am beginning to see this spiritually. I go back to where I am comfortable because I don't ask. But in order for me to push forward and stay there until I am supposed to go to the next level: I NEED to ask questions.

There is much more I can blog on but this is all I could formulate at the moment.