In my mind comes these horrible things. Things that go against what I've been living for. And I know it is a trick of the enemy. So I am just going to put it in the air.
I have these thoughts of Jesus not being real. In my mind runs the thought of when the end of life comes there will be no Jesus and all of this is for nothing. But as I sat down at my computer something compelled me to go to my online bible site (http://www.bibletools.org/) and the chapter of John (part of the gospels). As many people know the gospels are filled with the miracles Jesus did while He was here on earth.
And as I am reading I am saying to myself, how could my Jesus not be real. No one can ever do such things. Turning water into wine, speaking the truth about someones life and only known them for 3 minutes and healing people. Also as I think of the things that He's done for me. Placing people where they need to be and being my guidance. Jesus is very much real. Another thing that I want to point out is my scripture of the day that is "randomly generated" daily (or given for God): Colossians 2:6-7, As ye therefore received Christ Jesus the Lord, so walk ye in Him: rooted and built up in Him and stablished in the faith as ye have been taught, abounding therein with thanksgiving.
I will NOT let these thoughts which I believe aren't my own, pull me away from the sweetest thing no person can ever offer. Jesus is all I really have to make it successfully through this world. So I will stay embedded in that and living for the One and Only Living God. There is none other that can compare to all that He has done in these short four years of my life.
So keep me in your prayers.