I went to sleep close to 5am and was waken up around 8-ish. I picked up my concordance was led to the topic of "followers" and thus came to the following:
Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before, I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.
I, myself have to keep moving toward God. The scripture is saying that it doesn't matter what was done or said in the past. Just to keep moving forward and to finish the race and get the prize. I can't change what already happened but I can change what could happen.