If I know something for a fact it is harder for me to do wrong. When my mama asks me to do something and I don't want to do it or says something I don't want to hear, I can feel the attitude getting ready to burst out. Then the fifth commandment pops in my head, "honor thy father and mother." I stop. I think. Not so much about me getting ready to dishonor my mother (i care), but my father.
It was his choice to move so far away and it was his choice to contact us when he pleased, so I got the same mentality. But as this commandment kept popping up in my head I began to reason with myself for a long time. I felt that I would of been the real bad guy if I didn't atleast put one phone call through. I called but, no answer. I called a few days later, still no answer. Finally I get a call back and we talked.
After a few telephone conversations he says "I Love You" with a little skepticism in his voice. I forced the words back out and hung up. I then thought, "why the words were so hard to say?" I thought it was just plain acting in the movies when the kids had bitterness toward the run-away parent.
The Bible tells me to do one thing but I want to do another. But it is not my will and it is not about me, right?